- Always say yes to seeing friends
- Eat breakfast every day
- Recognize that positive change rarely happens overnight
- Accept the fuck-ups, but try not to let them happen again
- There is a song to remedy every situation on the planet
- Appreciate the people in your life
- Look for the good in everything
- Try new things and try them often
- Treat yourself as well as you treat others
I was pouring coffee this morning when I got this sick feeling in my stomach. The type of feeling that doesn’t go away with a shaking of the head. This is the type of sick feeling that can grow into a disease. As I stared into my cup, I wondered, will this be my life?
My best friend is a thinker. She doesn’t ever stop thinking, processing and re-processing. Since last year, she’s been uncomfortable. She can’t allow herself to be content, and she’s constantly telling me that she wants more. I struggled to relate. I envisioned success as working with a great company, going to work every day loving what I do and making a wage that allows me to be comfortable. This was all true, until the wallpaper on that idealized life started to tear away.
At the bottom of that coffee cup, I saw myself; drowning in the monotony of the day-to-day. My stare was only broken once a co-worker entered the room and even then I wondered if this was the life she imagined. I can’t allow myself to believe that going to a job everyday with three weeks’ vacation will suffice.
I want to see the world. I want to live outside of what I had once considered “successful”. At 25, I’ve made minor accomplishments, and I’m tempted to say I’d give it all away to burst out of this office and see the world. I’ll find my way home, as I always do, but the experiences. The experiences will break down these walls of uncertainty that I’ve built around myself.
No more coffee…